Sunday, December 23, 2018
Kathie and William were coming back to see me this morning, along with Josiah, but it seemed to take absolutely forever for them to get here. Then when I got to see them, Kathie seemed very disturbed and said it just wasn’t the same today. So I was rather broken-hearted and didn’t know what to do. It lightened up later, but I’ve been really tired and felt “down in the dumps” the rest of the day. I can’t wait till bedtime so I can go to sleep. Kathie and William are coming back at around 8:30 tomorrow morning before going back home. I sure wish I was going with them.
I have become deeply burdened for the souls around me, and have been praying that God would give me the right words to reach them. He told me tonight to begin by praying for them, and He will give me the opportunity and the right words in His timing. It’s just one more thing I must surrender to Him and trust Him for.
I have felt better since around 7:30 or 8pm, when I finally picked up the excellent book I’ve been reading (I now am more than halfway through), Francis Chan’s “Letters to the Church.” Every pastor should read it. In fact, anyone involved in church leadership should read it. My son William sent it to me for Christmas. So far, it’s the only tangible Christmas gift I’ve gotten. I say tangible because I consider the visit of Kathie, William, and Josiah this weekend the greatest gift I could have received. Thank you, too, for all the prayers being offered up to the Father on my behalf, and my family’s behalf. I certainly need them, but Kathie and my children, at least the three closest to home, need them most. I am very, very concerned, because Kathie is not doing well at all, and there’s nothing I can do but pray for her. It breaks my heart more than anything.